Jessie J has emotionally revealed that she feels like breast cancer ‘robber her of time with her son’ as she gave an update on her life post-surgery in a candid new podcast chat released on Wednesday.
The singer, 37, has been recovering after undergoing a full mastectomy in June, after the disease was luckily caught by doctors ‘early’.
She recorded Jamie Laing’s Great Company podcast in two parts – first in May when she revealed her diagnosis and later after she had her surgery.
After hearing the recording of the first part of the podcast she didn’t want it released and came back after her surgery to record again where she spoke openly and honestly about her cancer battle.
Jessie shares her son Sky, two, with her boyfriend Chanan Safir Colman who she met in 2021 but on the podcast she said she found it hard having surgery and treatment as she missed out on time with him.
She said: ‘Yesterday I sobbed. I feel like I can’t be a mum to my son and I miss him. I feel like cancer has robbed me of memories with my boy.
Jessie J has emotionally revealed that she feels like breast cancer ‘robber her of time with her son’ as she gave an update on her life post-surgery in a candid new podcast chat
The singer, 37, has been recovering after undergoing a full mastectomy in June, after the disease was luckily caught by doctors ‘early’
‘I have missed stuff with the treatment and stuff moves so fast when you have a toddler. Some days are awful.’
The singer also reflected on some of the lower moments of her cancer battle as she said: ‘I had moments where I thought ‘this is going to go left and I’m going to die’.’
She added however: ‘But I weirdly kind of enjoy bad things happening to me sometimes as it means I need to grow. I believe bad things happen to me so I can help other people who will then go through it.’
Jessie described how she found a lump in her breast and went on to have a biopsy before the doctors rang her with the results.
She said: ‘When they told me I just burst into tears. The doctors had said it was probably just a cyst so I wasn’t too worried. The lump was about 4-5cms of cancer.
‘But my music and my love of my job got me through this. I was so busy with work after the diagnosis I don’t think I processed things properly.’
Her last show before having surgery was Capital’s Summertime Ball which she remembers fondly.
She said of the day: ‘I wish everyone who has ever been diagnosed with anything scary could experience what I did at the Summertime Ball.
‘I said that it was my last show before going off to beat cancer and the whole crowd erupted. That was all of them just giving me a hug.
Jessie shares her son Sky, two, with her boyfriend Chanan Safir Colman who she met in 2021 but on the podcast she said she found it hard having surgery and treatment as she missed out on time with him
The singer also reflected on some of the lower moments of her cancer battle as she said: ‘I had moments where I thought ‘this is going to go left and I’m going to die”
‘That euphoria and energy was… when I was put to sleep I replayed that moment in my head. It showed me that people just love each other. People held up signs saying ‘we love you’, ‘I’ve beat cancer twice’ and stuff like that.’
After her surgery she went on to describe how she ‘was so happy to be alive’ and broke down in tears when she saw her boyfriend after waking up.
It comes after last week the singer revealed how being diagnosed with breast cancer made her realise ‘life is too short’ and encouraged her to pursue some goals.
Reflecting on her journey in a video shared to Instagram on Saturday, Jessie listed some new challenges she hoped to chase.
She revealed: ‘I want to write books. Do a kids album. Get all my tattoos taken off. Take my family on holiday.
‘I want to learn to ride a bike. I’d like to learn another language… but I know that’s not going to happen.
‘I want to see if I can sort out some medication or some cognitive therapy or something for my ADHD and OCD.’
Jessie explained: ‘When you go through something like cancer people are like ‘you’ve changed.’
‘But I think I always had those thoughts, cancer just makes us actually act on them because you’re like ‘life is short, I want to do it now.’ I’ve always wanted to do that so I’m going to do it.’
Jessie recently shared the heartbreaking moment she ‘sobbed’ over her scars after undergoing the surgery.
In a moving interview with The Sunday Times’ Culture Magazine, Jessie shared that after having surgery, she broke down in tears while looking at her scars.
The singer had been told by doctors that as the cancer had been caught ‘early’ she would not need radiotherapy or chemotherapy, but due to the size of the lump in her breast, she underwent a full mastectomy instead of a lumpectomy.
It comes after last week the singer revealed how being diagnosed with breast cancer made her realise ‘life is too short’ and encouraged her to pursue some goals
She said: ‘The other night. Mum was massaging my boob for me, because I can’t touch the scars. And I started sobbing, ”I can’t believe this has happened.” She was like, ‘I wish it was me,’ and then I’m crying, she’s crying… I’m so glad it’s not her.’
Jessie added that she while she will need more surgery in the future, she’s still steaming ahead with promoting her return to music, with her next song Believe In Magic set for release on August 29.
She added: ‘People think, once you’ve got the all-clear, now it’s done. But I’ve got another surgery [to improve the symmetry of her implant with her other breast] and I need to heal, so I have to figure out the rest of this year.’
Jessie went onto gush about her beloved son Sky, two, admitting he’s been the ‘light of her life’ during her cancer battle.